how to break your mother’s heart

how do i break my mother’s heart?

how do i tell the woman that gave me life that every other day i think about ending it all

how do i tell the woman who put food on the table for 18 years that i don’t keep it down anymore

how do i tell the woman who raised me to be this “perfect little girl” that i’m not a girl anymore

if i tell her all of this her heart will be broken

and then i’ll be here feeling like shit

i’ll eventually tell her

and that’s how i’ll break my mother’s heart