Confused

I look in the mirror and I need clarity

I don’t know who I am

I used to be a bisexual female

then turned to a pansexual non-binary

and now am a pansexual genderqueer… I think

I don’t know what makes me happy anymore

I don’t know who I am anymore

These men want me to be a female and some days I’m okay with that but I don’t know if that’s me

I long for the days when I wasn’t so confused about me and my body

Now because I’m dysphoric I don’t know who I am and I don’t always like what I see

Then I question my reality when my relatives start to say to me “God made you a certain way and that’s what you should be”

I don’t know who I am anymore